I have thought over and over how I was going to blog about my weekend at the BRAVE GIRL'S CAMP in Idaho. I don't even know if words can articulate the feelings in my heart. It is almost like my HEART is open...and all I can say if there is OVERFLOWING emotions of love, gratitude, knowledge and much thankfulness.
When Melody asked me to come to the event, I knew it was nearly impossible with my schedule. I have booked myself traveling wise for the next year and 1/2. So as much as I wanted to go...I felt GUILTY leaving my family. I was actually supposed to teach at another event, but for some reason- I was not getting emails from the event organizer and not getting my emails returned, so with all the confusion, I was open to go to Idaho instead.
Melody had told me that this event would be LIFE CHANGING and that she knew I was supposed to be there. I felt in my heart- that I WAS supposed to go. I am so busy right now...but wow...I just KNEW she was right. So many things were going on and I could have easily canceled but I just KNEW...and listened to my heart.
On the first day, I met up with the other BRAVE GIRLS and we got on a shuttle bus up to the CABIN. I was a little nervous. What had I got myself into????? I would have NO computer access, NO cell phone coverage and communication with my family or work for 4 days. (did I mention I have huge work deadlines?) The ride up to the cabin in Garden Valley, IDAHO was wonderful. I could FEEL something big was going to happen. I felt an instant connection to the BRAVE GIRLS...
Melody met us up near the top of the mountain (just before we got to the cabin) and we agreed to "be there" and leave our concerns, guilt, fears, etc. RIGHT there... (we threw bird seed in the AIR- yes, worrying is for the birds- right?) A short time later...we arrived to beautiful girls who hugged and welcomed us. I felt like I was a sister and that I was returning HOME.
This is where I feel like my life changed.
The cabin was so beautiful and invited. They hung personal photos from the green (cute!!!!) drapes. I love the sign- IT'S ALL GOOD!
The decor was BEAUTIFUL. It was the little touches that made the home inviting and the BRAVE GIRLS feel at home.
This is MELODY ROSS. Well, she is the reason why I am having a hard time posting about this event...well, and her sister Kathy too. I have to say that I have known Melody for several years. I like many of you have known of her struggles and her spirit of never giving up. I am blessed to have REALLY gotten to KNOW her in the past year. SHE is the BEST person and TRUEST friend anyone would ever want. I felt so lucky to be friends... we are very similar in many ways, so we just CONNECT with unspoken words but from the heart. I admire her MORE than words can express. I love her so much. I mean this more than I can articulate. A week or so before the event, we were talking on the phone and I was just a little worried to go to BRAVE GIRLS with so much on my plate. She too has much on her plate. We could be sisters in so many ways. We have so many similiarities- in our beliefs, past experiences, our family (we both have 5 children by birth...and our mom's name is Myrna Jean...and Myrla Jean)....well, but it is so much more than that. SHE knew I needed to come-
She is not only BEAUTIFUL on the outside but this girl SHINES.... you want to be around such light!
This is where the ART was captured from my soul. The ART TENT was where I focused on myself...in the most TRUE form. This was NOT at all about scrapbooking. It was about finding ONESELF. Look at the tent... on the outside it is not that beautiful...(it would be easy to judge the outside and think...wow, not sure about this!) However, we KNOW that we need to judge what is on the inside-
BEAUTIFUL lights and Green Lanterns were hung... It felt peaceful and inviting. We listened to beautiful playlists of music as we created. To be VERY honest, I just feel like it was so special- I don't know if I should talk about some of what we did. So- I want to SHARE what I got out of it...my experience.
This was the first thing we did. A box to put all of our art into. This turned into a message for ME. We all did our own style and expressed from the heart. There was no rules. So no two projects at the entire camp was the same. I learned some things about myself...
I am SO MUCH BRAVER than I think I am. I can soar and FLY.
This entire event was needed for me to REFLECT on MY life... and I wrote messages to myself. We made a tin... It was like a letter to ME. My cover is a photo of myself at 3 years old:
Dear Teresa,
You were born to shine.
You have the courage to you need to do this...dig deep! It will be worth it.
I am a big journaler- so I wrote each page to myself. A constant reminder...I know that I need to follow my heart.
I am MUCH stronger than I think I am.
Melody had printed out the most beautiful thought. Lots of them. I choose the ones that spoke to my heart-
Dear Teresa
SOAR FLY...
You will do tremendous things- things that no one else could ever do- because there is no one in the world who is exactly like you.
I love this:
Dear Teresa-
Everything happens EXACTLY when it should, lasts as exactly as long as it's supposed to last, and teaches us exactly what we need to learn.
Can you imagine- WRITING to yourself? it was like a AH HA. moment. I fought back tears. I was thinking and reflecting on my past- joys, sorrow, pain, lessons learned... and I focused on the positive and I have a tin full of cards/letters to myself that I keep rereading to myself.
We took lots of breaks for FOOD and snacks. Kathy showered us with the most amazing food. I felt like I was at a CELEBRITY retreat. (yes, I gained FOUR pounds in four days- so worth it too!) I know Kathy and the girls put their HEART into the menu and presentation. THANK YOU SO MUCH- I felt so pampered and special.
I made a wad for myself and a GLITTER timer. Yes, so me...and I need to remind myself to take a little TIME for myself EACH day.
I love that my TIMER shines... I want to SHINE and be happy/ sparkly like the timer. TIME is VALUABLE...I don't want to waste my time on earth. I want to make a difference in the world, by example to others and within the walls of my home. My FAMILY needs ME to SHINE and be an example for them!!!!
This project was based upon a book- The Right Questions by Debbie Ford. I LOVED the questions and want to remember them EVERY day when I make decisions in my life.
One of the questions is:
Is this a act of self love or is it an act of self sabotage? (Mel told the example of when you eat ice cream do you eat a few bites or the entire ice cream carton)...I admit, I have had a hard time with the self love and eating a few bites. I have on countless occasions ate 1/2 a container...that is SELF SABOTAGE. Not a good decision and I always feel HORRIBLE afterwards.
I am now IN LOVE with birds and what they represent. Melody's new line (NEW at Michael's is BEAUTIFUL and full of inspiring messages!!!!) I love this thought- EVERY CHOICE I MAKE LEADS TO THE LIFE THAT I WILL LIVE.
Or- I WANT TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT THIS DECISION 5 YEARS FROM NOW...
AM I LISTENING TO MY SPIRIT???? at the end of this book I have... I want to go where the PEACE is. THANK YOU BRAVE GIRLS for helping me LISTEN again...in a deeper sense to myself and to Heavenly Father. I have to remember-
The BEST decisions are not very often the EASIEST ones.
We are BRAVE woman...we connected- we laughed, we cried, we created, and went on little sleep. We are better wifes, mothers, friends by all that we learned. I will NEVER be the same. It was deep and intense and honestly...the ART was merely a vehicle of pure love self expression to each of our souls. I KNEW I was supposed to be at the event to make friends and to see LOVE in action within the woman there. WE connected...I sat and created with Candice, Connie and Christi each day- I LOVE THEM...we shared so much. I met so many woman that FILLED my heart with love and that I consider FOREVER FRIENDS.
We had many NON scrapbookers at the event. They were there to HEAL, or GAIN a new perspective... it was beautiful to watch. One girl, Gail was stunning. She works with Melody and did not even know what Mod Podge was. She went to a craft store and asked for help. By the end, she was the girl staying in the ART TENT until 2 am. She made BEAUTIFUL ART from her soul. She smiled and was happy. We all walked around with huge grins.
We had morning 1 hour hikes, firesides, and music filled memories. It was PURE MAGIC!!!!
I witnessed Melody and Kathy follow their dream! They want to make a difference in the world. The openly shared their spirit and wisdom...They sang songs that moved us to tears. They had 4 generations in attendance helping with great love. Their beautiful mother, her daughters, Kathy's daughters and their babies too. I witnessed a family that LOVES and adores and supports each other.
Melodys husband Marq stayed and protected us- These two are so madly in love...They have been through so much...it's just a testament to me that YOU have to ENDURE it well.
The last project...wow... this one hit home. It was a I PROMISE book.
A book to read to help ME to promise to take what I learned and KNOW in my heart to do.
I wrote this to ME...yes, I am in the front of the book as a baby. I promised... I will be brave.
I PROMISE to focus on the GOOD THINGS:
fun, friends, free- time, love, forgiveness... well, you can see the list in the photo.
One of the pages... I PROMISE -
I will go where the PEACE is... in my heart and in my life.
Another: I PROMISE
I will choose the people who bring out the VERY BEST in me...(thank you kids...I always want to be the very best example for EACH of YOU!)
Here is the list of ...I PROMISE NO MORE.....
Guilt, shame, sadness, overworking, stress, anger, bitterness, sorrow, etc.
I have left OUT so much...so many of the other projects. Well, guess what? The main PROJECT was myself. I gained so much. I am stronger, braver, happier, and well...I have a new perspective on life. I have always been happy, thankful, but THIS event made me a better me. I cried off and on the entire 6 hours home on Saturday. I had talked to Melody...because I KNEW why I was supposed to go. I KNEW it was because this is BIG... I have to be apart of this. I have to spread the message...and support this event. Melody, I am backing you 1000% percent.
I have never done this on my blog...but I will now-
YOU HAVE TO DO THIS too...
I promise you will NEVER be the same.
I hope if you are reading this that you will take the time...make the time...
NOW to sign up and GO... you are worth it!!!! I know I will be going again.
I want my girls to go... this message, this event...
THANK YOU MELODY and KATHY for inviting me... I love you both so much!!!!
I came home and told Ty...can we move to Idaho????
I found myself...and I didn't even know I was lost. Go figure....
I came home to this:
and this...
Sunday dinner yesterday with my HOUSE... my HEART...BRAVE GIRLS- you know you get it...
Information for Brave Girls is atBRAVE GIRLS or email kathy@bravegirlsclub.com
Next BRAVE GIRLS CAMP- Feb. 17-20th- 2010.
Are you still awake????
I am passionate about THIS...and hope from my post you can feel IT!